February 17th 2019
How far along:
21 weeks 2 days
Baby is the size of:
A baseball cap apparently 🙈
Total weight gain:
Currently unknown haha!
Again, not great. I’ve been fully diagnosed with SPD now and I’m off work on the sick because of it. The colder weather that we’re having makes it much worse. The school run in the mornings is particularly painful. By the time I’ve walked to the school and back I’m limping, my hips are clicking and I have a painful, pulling ache all through my groin. It feels as though my public bone could snap in two. It’s really not very nice to live with.
Hindered by pain unfortunately. Movement through the night often wakes me. It takes me a while to find a comfortable spot again resulting in really broken sleep and extreme fatigue during the day.
Mostly I’ve been wearing baggy knitted jumpers and stretchy jeans or leggings. Not the most fashionable of items, but then I’m not the most fashionable of people, so I really don’t mind. I’m choosing comfort over everything at the moment.
All the ones I have from willow, nothing new so far.
Physical aches and pains.
Sore boobs and itchy boobs.
Mood swings from time to time.
Little bit of incontinence when I cough or sneeze.
Slight improvement of the constantly greasy hair.
My nails are growing quicker.
An increase in SPD symptoms.
None. I don’t plan on having any for a long time yet!
Belly Button in or out?
Poking out a bit now lol
Rings on or off?
I have a very wriggly baby these days. I’m trying to work out a pattern.
Nothing much but I have really been enjoying and fancying tomato soup a lot lately.
Anything making you queasy?
Meh. Again, it’s hard to say. I’m not going great, Saturday just gone I spent the whole day feeling totally crap mentally. I’m not leaving the house much, this last week I’ve only left the house to go to hospital appointments. Seeing the same 4 walls all the time is frustrating. And I have a lot of time to think, so I’m spending a lot of my time internally. Towards the end of the week I decided to just crack on around the house. I want to get prepared and make space for the baby. I did my best and felt great because I had achieved more than I had hoped for, but it’s also frustrating because I’ve always been one for getting shit done if I can, which usually I just do what I need to do but because of the SPD and the pain that it causes, I’m so limited. Even carrying washing up and down the stairs causes agony so what feels like the most basic of tasks takes it out of me entirely and I get cross because it’s happening.
It’s just a vicious circle. This week though, I am trying to approach things with a better mindset. Reminding myself that I may not be able to get out and about, but at least the pain will be ever so slightly manageable because of it. Accepting that there is only so much I can do myself, and allowing myself to ask for help. Not the easiest thing to do for me, but that’s what I hoping to achieve. I do feel like I will massively benefit mentally is I just ACCEPT things as they are, instead of battling with my inner self all the time.
Any Medication taken?
Sertraline 50mg daily.
Gaviscon if and when needed.
Said it before, I’ll say it again; The freedom of movement! Pain free life?! I’m also missing the normality of working.
we’re having a baby boy!
Purchases for baby:
I didn’t buy these, I was given them. 2 big bags full of clothes suitable from birth to 9 months. Really handy and full of items that are gorgeous!
Purchases for me:
nothing. We’ve not got money spare this month with me being on the sick. I really do need to invest in some more maternity wear though, tops, trousers, and underwear. I’m growing quickly these days so it’s getting more and more urgent.
Best Moment(s) of the Week:
Nothing that great has happened really. It’s been lovely being home for willow in all honesty though. I’ve just not being doing much so therefore the highlights are simply just getting stuff done!
Looking forward to:
I have a growth scan in a couple of weeks. I didn’t have growth scans on willow so I’m quite looking forward to that.
Nothing much to note this week. The SPD has kicked itself up a notch, walking causes an intense feeling of bruising down in my groin. My pubic bone feels like it’s going to snap in two. Sitting down here and there gives me a chance to rest and eases the pain enough for me to get some other stuff done around the house though, so I can at least keep on top of things.
Anxiety is also creeping, I feel like I need to nest so I’ve been doing a lot of cleaning. I set up a new Instagram account to capture my progress and share photos of my cleaning/house achievements. It’s nice to have something to talk about that isn’t just me being pregnant and on the sick. If you use Instagram and fancy seeing it my handle is @kaboodlehome.